Yes, Thomas cuts. For any emo, cutting is something that comes naturally as part of their depression. It hurst to see someone with a new slit across their wrist every day. Cutting is not the right way to go either. Once Thomas cut at a part on his wrist where if he would've cut a little bit deeper and 1 cm down he would've hit a major blood vessel and killed himself. He said he wished he would've hit thats vessel, but i guess it was destiny that he doesn't die. At least not yet. We need him. He just doesn't understand. He doesn't undestand his purpose. But his purpose is to make us happy. Everytime I see him smile, i get butterflies, and everytime i hear about what he does to himself, i cry. Because just listening to how he puts himself through torture makes me miserable. There is this one time though. When he promised me we would be best friends. I will paste you the conversation. Here it is:
Thomas: were always gonna be bestest buddies till the end of time and ill love u and care about u everyday of my life even if i say i dont.
That meant more to me than anything in the entire world. But he doesnt say that anymore, he claims we're friends, but he only talks to me about sex now. And its actually really disturbing. I wish there was some way to bring him back...
Monday, March 31, 2008
Thomas' Story
Hey, we thought you guys should know the reason why we created this site. The reason is our best friend in the entire world, and the guy we would die without. Thomas.
Ashley--
I have known Thomas since I was 3 years old. My family moved in and he lived across the street from me. His family was so nice, and we loved them immidiatly. His mother does suffer from a horrible disease though it is called bipolar. Thomas and I grew up together playing sports, just talking, and just doing everything together. We were inseperable. Everything was just fine, until the summer before 7th grade. (Summer oh seven). I was just being my lazy old self sitting on the computer IMing, when i saw Thomas' away messege. It read "taken by the police, wont be back for a while". At first I thought hes just playing around. But.. I soon learned differently. Thomas came to my door about 2 days later, and asked if we could talk. I asked him what was going on. And then, I learned the story....Thomas' mom beats him regularly and he finally got sick of it, so he held a knife to her throat as a threat. He didnt do anything but when he realized he was just going insane he ran away from home. His Mom called the police and they found him at the park. So he was taken back to the house, put in handcuffs and brought to a mental facility to get things worked out.
A few days later he told me that he had to go to a special school for a week. That meant he would miss football weigh ins which made him even more depressed and devestated. Football was his life. Soon he came back to school and ended up getting to weigh in for football. He ended up being a light weight and finished his season really well. I must say hes quite a stud =] Rico calls him a stud muffin. haha. but anyways.. Thomas had always been kind of a dare devil.. but he had gotten worse. He was given a pass to get out of class if he needed to see a counsler at anytime, so he would use it just to get out of the class because he didnt care about his grades, or learning or anything anymore..
This kind of stuff went on for a while. Then, after a few months, the tests came out that he had the same disease his mother has. Thomas is bipolar.
Lots of things have gone wrong, he is not a virgin, he does drugs, he drinks beer and gets drunk, he swears and uses inappropriate sexual terms all the time now. He talks about sex 24/7 and just recently told me that he wants to be like Marilyn Manson because Marilyn could suck his ..... yeah... that. But anyways.. things have gotten worse and worse over time, the girl who loves him with all her heart is being pushed away by him every moment and the closer she tries to get, the farther away he pushes her. People are giving up on him left and right, hes a handful and sometimes seems almost impossible to deal with. I have tried giving up on him myself, this was after he told me that i was annoying and i needed a new personality (of course he threw in some fancy language, if you know what i mean =-/ I wish i could have the old him back. He has become an awful person. And i cant stand to see him like this. I wish that he hadn't chosen to put the knife to his mother's throat that one day. his whole life changed that day, and he changed the lives of so many other people.. including his best friend...me.
(sorry that was very long, but his story is very complicated, besides, you think that was long, I left out half the story so it wasn't as long...=-o
Ashley--
I have known Thomas since I was 3 years old. My family moved in and he lived across the street from me. His family was so nice, and we loved them immidiatly. His mother does suffer from a horrible disease though it is called bipolar. Thomas and I grew up together playing sports, just talking, and just doing everything together. We were inseperable. Everything was just fine, until the summer before 7th grade. (Summer oh seven). I was just being my lazy old self sitting on the computer IMing, when i saw Thomas' away messege. It read "taken by the police, wont be back for a while". At first I thought hes just playing around. But.. I soon learned differently. Thomas came to my door about 2 days later, and asked if we could talk. I asked him what was going on. And then, I learned the story....Thomas' mom beats him regularly and he finally got sick of it, so he held a knife to her throat as a threat. He didnt do anything but when he realized he was just going insane he ran away from home. His Mom called the police and they found him at the park. So he was taken back to the house, put in handcuffs and brought to a mental facility to get things worked out.
A few days later he told me that he had to go to a special school for a week. That meant he would miss football weigh ins which made him even more depressed and devestated. Football was his life. Soon he came back to school and ended up getting to weigh in for football. He ended up being a light weight and finished his season really well. I must say hes quite a stud =] Rico calls him a stud muffin. haha. but anyways.. Thomas had always been kind of a dare devil.. but he had gotten worse. He was given a pass to get out of class if he needed to see a counsler at anytime, so he would use it just to get out of the class because he didnt care about his grades, or learning or anything anymore..
This kind of stuff went on for a while. Then, after a few months, the tests came out that he had the same disease his mother has. Thomas is bipolar.
Lots of things have gone wrong, he is not a virgin, he does drugs, he drinks beer and gets drunk, he swears and uses inappropriate sexual terms all the time now. He talks about sex 24/7 and just recently told me that he wants to be like Marilyn Manson because Marilyn could suck his ..... yeah... that. But anyways.. things have gotten worse and worse over time, the girl who loves him with all her heart is being pushed away by him every moment and the closer she tries to get, the farther away he pushes her. People are giving up on him left and right, hes a handful and sometimes seems almost impossible to deal with. I have tried giving up on him myself, this was after he told me that i was annoying and i needed a new personality (of course he threw in some fancy language, if you know what i mean =-/ I wish i could have the old him back. He has become an awful person. And i cant stand to see him like this. I wish that he hadn't chosen to put the knife to his mother's throat that one day. his whole life changed that day, and he changed the lives of so many other people.. including his best friend...me.
(sorry that was very long, but his story is very complicated, besides, you think that was long, I left out half the story so it wasn't as long...=-o
Elmo
Just so you guys aren't wondering about the term "elmo" if rico and i start using it, i will tell you the story behind it. One day my dad decided i was "emo" so he wanted to create his own special way of saying "emo" so he started calling me "elmo". So ever since then when my friends and i talk about "emos" we say ELMO! its just a lot cuter and fun. =] besides. i heart elmo ♥
Pictures of Emo clothing
Here are some of the items we talked about in our last entry.
Rainbow Studded Belt
Classic Studded Belt
Skinny Jeans
Band T-Shirts (we love boys like girls!)
Traditional high top (converse shoe)
(all items were found on hottopic.com)
Rainbow Studded Belt
Classic Studded Belt
Skinny Jeans
Band T-Shirts (we love boys like girls!)
Traditional high top (converse shoe)
(all items were found on hottopic.com)
Emo Style
Alright, so you want to go emo? Well we can help! My friend Caroline [rico for short] and i are making a blog with some good emo starter tips for all you girls/guys who wanna rock to their own beat. So, first thing we're going to have to start with is the general "emo" look. Here are some recommendations.
1. black skinny jeans
2. dark black eye liner
3. studded belts
4. band t-shirts
5. straightened hair
6. converse or vans brand shoes
7. usually side-parted hair
8. peace t-shirts
9. wristbands (even if you dont cut)
10. walk around with your hands halfway in pants pockets
(most of the clothing we mention is available at hot topic)
Now that you have the look do you have the attitude? Well, emos are usually very quiet. They walk around with their heads down and dont talk very much. They usually have hair covering their eyes so it gives off the impression that they are being isolated from the rest of the world and dont want to be talked to. If your thinking to yourself.. "i dont want to stop talking and walk with my head down i just want to change my style" then your probably thinking of going punk. Punk is a different concept. Emos are more sensitive, punks just want to be different than everyone and they want to stand out. So they can also be called Rebels. Where emos, dont care if they stand out or not, they dont care about anything, they are usually so depressed they just exclude the rest of the world completely.
Emos alot of the time think about suicide and/or cut. These are not very good things to have going on in your life. They scare a lot of people close to the emo. One of our friends who is very close to us is emo, and he talks about how he doesnt want to live his life anymore and he cuts his wrists regularly. We do not suggest cutting or thinking about suicide. It is not healthy. If you do have suicidal thoughts or cut your wrists, you should see a counsler.
Emos also have a tendancy to go down the wrong path a lot of the time. This is not something we really want you to do, but if it happens to you be sure to get help. My emo friend drinks and does drugs. He is also only 13 and not a virgin anymore. He has gotten invovled with the wrong crowd because he is tired of the people who tell him that everything is going to be okay when he knows its not.
Therefore we suggest that you do not tell an emo its going to be okay, because if they are like this, then something in their life is really wrong, and they are not going to be okay just because you say they will be. They need serious help and only the people who truly love them can make everything semi-okay.
Going emo may not be the best choice, but if its something that you plan on looking into then you should follow your heart and be who you want to be. I would suggest more just dressing emo, and not necissarily following the bad habits they tend to develop. Like I said before, if you just want to change up your style then i would consider yourself a punk or rebel.
Thanks for reading. Hope you now learn to think of our emos in a different way then before.
Peace, Love and Eyeliner,
Ash and Rico =]
1. black skinny jeans
2. dark black eye liner
3. studded belts
4. band t-shirts
5. straightened hair
6. converse or vans brand shoes
7. usually side-parted hair
8. peace t-shirts
9. wristbands (even if you dont cut)
10. walk around with your hands halfway in pants pockets
(most of the clothing we mention is available at hot topic)
Now that you have the look do you have the attitude? Well, emos are usually very quiet. They walk around with their heads down and dont talk very much. They usually have hair covering their eyes so it gives off the impression that they are being isolated from the rest of the world and dont want to be talked to. If your thinking to yourself.. "i dont want to stop talking and walk with my head down i just want to change my style" then your probably thinking of going punk. Punk is a different concept. Emos are more sensitive, punks just want to be different than everyone and they want to stand out. So they can also be called Rebels. Where emos, dont care if they stand out or not, they dont care about anything, they are usually so depressed they just exclude the rest of the world completely.
Emos alot of the time think about suicide and/or cut. These are not very good things to have going on in your life. They scare a lot of people close to the emo. One of our friends who is very close to us is emo, and he talks about how he doesnt want to live his life anymore and he cuts his wrists regularly. We do not suggest cutting or thinking about suicide. It is not healthy. If you do have suicidal thoughts or cut your wrists, you should see a counsler.
Emos also have a tendancy to go down the wrong path a lot of the time. This is not something we really want you to do, but if it happens to you be sure to get help. My emo friend drinks and does drugs. He is also only 13 and not a virgin anymore. He has gotten invovled with the wrong crowd because he is tired of the people who tell him that everything is going to be okay when he knows its not.
Therefore we suggest that you do not tell an emo its going to be okay, because if they are like this, then something in their life is really wrong, and they are not going to be okay just because you say they will be. They need serious help and only the people who truly love them can make everything semi-okay.
Going emo may not be the best choice, but if its something that you plan on looking into then you should follow your heart and be who you want to be. I would suggest more just dressing emo, and not necissarily following the bad habits they tend to develop. Like I said before, if you just want to change up your style then i would consider yourself a punk or rebel.
Thanks for reading. Hope you now learn to think of our emos in a different way then before.
Peace, Love and Eyeliner,
Ash and Rico =]
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