woah

mothaa i haven't written in a while! well, there's a lot to say. 1st you should know, me and thomas aren't exactly "bffs" again, but we're okay. i dont think he [hates] me now, but he definitely was just kidding when he said i wasn't fake, because about 2 days ago i was with him and he kept calling me "fakey" over and over again. the reason he was calling me fakey was because he saw my left wrist... yes, i cut. sorry =-/ im trying hard to stop, i promise. but, he thinks that hes the only one that can be [truely] depressed... he thinks that hes the only one that can wear clothes just to make a statement. and he thinks hes the only one who can actually cut and not be called fake... thats the only thing that annoys me about him. he thinks that hes the only [real] one. but, truth is, hes the one thats fake. another thing; he told me that i probably just cut for attention, which is partially true, because y'all know me, i need attention to survive, i just tend to try to get it the wrong ways but anyways.. i was talking to my buddy caroline, and she said that im definitely not fake, and that everyone thinks that hes the one who wants attention, so i shouldn't be worried. thanks caroline :] you are my sunshine. so, yeah, thats pretty much what's been happening. me and kayla are kinda falling apart since i first cut, so, im trying to patch that up. i have an xanga. so if you guys wanna check it out its: www.xanga.com/losing_you_08
peace, love and jonas brothers <3
ashweena :]